looking toward the weekend.

It's Thursday, finally! Bringing us one day closer to the weekend! I am looking forward to this weekend with both excitement and trepidation.

I have opened myself to possibility and invited Jess (en femme) to be a part of this weekend. A few weeks ago we were discussing my part time photography hobby, and Jess asked when I was going to take pics of her. She said people are asking for her to put pics up on Facebook and it is really hard to get a good one of yourself! I mulled it over in my brain for a few days and then told her I would do it.

We do not have children this weekend so it would be perfect. Also, we will be at my house which will add to my comfort level. I had a hotel room booked for my company's holiday party on Sat. night and had the intent of taking them there, before or after the party. That way my furniture and belongings won't show in the pics and give away identities.

After thinking about it for a week or so, I decided to cancel the hotel room and take the pictures at my house after all. I think it will lend to my overall comfort level and feelings of security. Also, I think that the $100.00 could be better spent somewhere else since the hotel is only about 30 miles from my house.

We have also discussed not going to my holiday party. I really am not in the mood to go and from what I have heard, it is only the big whigs and brown nosers that go and I am neither. So instead, I think the plan will be to shop all day, get our nails done, go to dinner, and then go home and have a photo shoot! Afterward we can snuggle the night away in the comfort of our own bed.

Now, while this is all being done at my invitation, and mostly I feel excited about it, there is the fear and anxiety that goes with any appearance of Jess en femme. My heart starts to pound, my blood races and my palms sweat. I haven't seen much of her dressed, and most of the times I have it has been sprung on me and I haven't had time to prepare. This time is different and I feel different.

Maybe it's all the discussion of it lately. Maybe its the fact that she sent out the letter. Maybe its just because I am getting more used to the idea of it. I don't know. I'm still nervous (as I know she is) but its easier (so far...) If she gives me permission, maybe I will post a few pics here next week...stop on back to see!

So, there you have it...another Day in the Life of Claire...