Another Day

Well, it's Claire again...today is just another day.

So, what is going on in our little world? Jess keeps moving forward, exploring all that it means to be Jess and female. Last Saturday she sent out "the" letter to her family and friends. It went into detail on who she is, what being a transsexual means and someo of her plans for the future. It went to her dad and her mom and all her siblings, along with some cousins and some friends. The outpouring of love and support she got was very overwhelming for her. She read the responses with tears streaming down her face.

Her family has added her to facebookand accepted her whole heartedly. While some of them have known for quite sometime, others knew something was different about "him", and others had no clue. It was truly an interesting weekend. For those that friended her on facebook, it was their first time seeing her en femme. He has one sister who he is especially close to that has really just jumped right in and offered encouragement and support.

And how am I doing in all this? Well, I am absolutely thrilled for her. It is what she has always wanted and so deserves. The outpouring of love is amazing and she is completely overwhelmed by it.

Other than that, I can feel myself backing away a tad. The more "woman" she becomes, the more I question whether or not I can be in an intimate relationship with her. I love her dearly and would never leave her. I will always support her and if she ever decided to have surgery, I would be sitting by her side when she wakes up, but I am not sure I could still be her girlfriend or her life partner.

I worry that I love her so much and that she is the one meant for me and I am not strong enough to follow through and stand up to all the doubters, hypocrites, and prejudiced people in the world. I don't know if I can tell my kids that the father figure they adore is really a woman. How can I be so shallow to worry about what people will say or the looks we will get?


Well, guess it's time to say good night. Jess had a procedure done yesterday and is ready to snuggle into bed and rest. She is at her house and I am at mine but she is patiently waiting for me to finish here so she can tuck me in. :) Love that, my favorite time of day. Missing her tonight....

Just another day in the life....