Well I guess I shouldn't have slept so much today. Twelve hours last night and a two hour nap this afternoon has left me wide awake. Add all my meandering thoughts to the laziness offers the day and you end up with insomnia. Not a good thing when I have to work tomorrow.
One of the many things floating through my energized brain is my insecurity over how I currently look. I have put on 5 of the pounds I lost and last Friday my left eye tooth broke off at the gum line. I feel fat and redneck and awful. And to top it all off, it doesn't seem like Jess has wanted to be romantic with me since my tooth broke. I hate it! I am a very sexual woman and need that type of contact. When I don't have it, I start to feel really insecure which generally makes things worse. I tried to talk to Jess about this today, but I don't think she heard what I was trying to say. She reassured me that she still finds me attractive and that she loves me, but at bedtime, I got a kiss goodnight, a few minutes of smuggling, and then she rolled over and went right to sleep....ugh...
Anyway...off to try this again...
Good night...from another sleepness night in the life of Claire....
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